Like a new job

Well, it took awhile but I'm finally getting back into the work world. I'm excited but also kind of nervous. But it's just jitters because I haven't worked full time in awhile. I know once I get into the swing of things and start a routine I'll be better than fine.

I'm proud of myself for not giving up and believing that something good was going to come along.

It's a hard thing being out of work. And it's even harder being out of work and looking for a job in what seems like a hopless market of limited opportunities, half of which I am not qualified for and the other half are garbage. But the hardest thing about being out of work is that you start to question yourself. You start to fixate on all your flaws and wonder what your self worth really is.

Then as your self esteem plummets you find that the only thing you feel like doing is lying around watching mindeless reality TV (which I believe are nothing more than this generation's modern day soap operas). I became more focused on what the girls from Teen Mom were doing or who was fighting on the Real Housewives than getting myself up, showered and out of the house. And I definitely had no desire or motivation to look for a job.

Having a good support system helps the most. Without people around me not letting me feel sorry for myself I would never have kept looking for a job and no way would I have had enough confidence to apply for the job I was just offered.

So next Monday I start my new career and although I am nervous I know that it will be graeat and I'll be great at it. Although, I will admit that my DVR will now be working overtime!

I am excited to feel productive, like I have a purpose. But mostly, I'm just glad I have somewhere to go 5 days a week and get paid for it!